Meditation Message A crystal dish with a pewter lid tarnished black with age. The curved sculpted handle and carved violets grace the heavy, domed cover. The fluted, soap-sized bowl, rests after 100 years of service amid the bottles and brushes on dressing tables. A Victorian powder box, from my father’s mother and her mother before. […]
Category Archives: Recovery Poetry
Seventh Step Plea
Oh, God of my understanding, Higher Power of my fathers,Understand my cries tonight. Hear my call to you for help.This is the first and greatest of my defects. My characterSuffers so from independence. It was once a necessaryEvil, but today I must put away the shards of glass that myChrysalis has become. It is my […]
Rebirth
Do butterflies recall caterpillar days: Green bloated bodies chewing leaves into lace, spinning themselves into shrouds of blessed invisibility? Do swans relive ugly-duckling beginnings, avoiding their own reflections in barnyard mirrors, forced into shame by the jeers of the cuter species? Frozen by familial terms of cruel endearment, a cowardly bookworm devouring fantasy stories of […]
What It Was Like
I Swirling confusion spirals around me. I’m caught in a whirlpool of behavior, emotion, belief, and memory that I can’t reconcile. I fight against the current, swim away from the vortex. I’m so tired, so sad. I long to surrender to the tide, but I choke back the tears, and insomnia protects me from my […]
Again
Alone in the dark How did I get here? Again I didn’t want to Yet here I am Again Every day I wake up I say “not tonight” Every night I’m here Again Self loathing Obese Isolated Body Aches Again Then I met you I act “as if” I write to you I hit my […]
This Obsession
This obsession – always thinking, planning, wishing to be thin, beautiful. This obsession is the way I hate myself: the way I look, the way I am, who I am. When I attack my body, I attack my soul, my Inner Self. My soul fills me like water fills a sponge, Reaching everywhere, Even into […]