Falling Into My Higher Power

Falling Into My Higher Power

I am sitting in the shade of a tree overlooking the water of the Niagara River as it rushes toward the American Falls. It’s the last day of my vacation, so I came back to this park to meditate for a few minutes, to connect with serenity, and capture my thoughts before I finish getting ready for the return flight home.

After meditating, I feel calmer and more centered. It is so difficult for me sit still and get centered. I am more comfortable when I am a human doing rather than a human being. However, today I sit quietly and allow the sound of the rushing waters, rustling leaves, and birdsong to shut down worries and judgments. I fall into the hands of my Higher Power, represented by that immense cascade of energy.

Meditation quieted the mind chatter that judged me on how well or correctly I conducted this vacation.  It soothed my sad heart, after seeing the American flag at half-mast on the 22nd anniversary of 9/11. I feel calm just sitting and watching the water flow. There’s irony in that calmness. My disease is not only about compulsive overeating; it’s also about my addiction to negative thinking. But the simple, soothing act of meditating puts me in touch with a quiet inner calm that has been there all along. In that calm, I appreciate my recovery from this disease for making me a better person and guiding this vacation to its positive outcome.

Through this meditation and writing practice, I experienced gratitude for my Higher Power’s gift of courage to travel here and the willingness to use program tools to keep me sane. During this vacation, I kept in touch with my sponsor, prayed no matter what, and was present for my sponsee.

Everything I have is granted through my trust in my Higher Power. ~Judy M.

A gentle disclaimer:

These comments are based on the member’s personal experience, strength, and hope gained through working the 12 Steps and 12 Traditions and using the tools of the program.

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